My Heart Speaks

Show me your face

I want to see you

I want to see your glory

I want to see your power

This very hour

So do it in me

My heart speaks out right now oh God

I need more than just comfort

I need love

I need affection

I need mercy

Forgiveness and hurt my heart speaks

My heart speaks out right now oh God

I life my voice up and i sing to you in vain

My worship is not enough

My heart speaks to You

I long for Your free acceptance

Your genuine love that far that exceeds man’s character

My heart speaks Lord

I give up

I want to die forever

To this world. To myself. I want to die to everything for You.

Love Is Never Enough

We spend our time working hard just to catch another dollar

We push loved ones to the side just for our names to get larger

Gotta push another person farther

Gotta make a safe distance

Gotta make sure they dont know me Isolation is never enough,

Solitary it really dont get us enough

Time alone; is a cherished time

Because there is no one to look you in the eyes

Or see the many times you cry

No one will ever know you lied

Remember that one time you said you were just fine

But really inside, you were dying to not cry

Trying to force them tears back and lie

Care so much of them and what they think you wear a disguise

Cake it on like makeup and change your looks, you die inside your demise

Make sure no one will ever read your hook

And truly find the meaning of why you say that  its never enough

People in this world become so cold and

nothing can warm them up

Only the feeling of being loved

and cherished

But once that feeling fades,

back to the cold familiar place

I spent all this time tryna be a people pleaser

but it aint do nothing for me but made me

lose some of me

I always cared to much of what others say

Too much of what others think

And i needed long ago to learn my do’s and donts

I needed to find in myself what others wont

And i wish i didnt fall so hard to all these fakes who dont

Care about what i deserve and about my wellbeing

i will sacrifice and be giving so much

Circumstances in every hurt doesnt really matter

Because whats past is past and its never enough

It will never be enough

For you to try and please everyone

all the love, doesnt really last and it aint enough

It aint enough

You can love so hard it cant be mistaken

And it aint enough

You can try to trust all you want

It wont be enough

But in the back your head it will be thoughts you dont want

Because trust isnt real in the world anymore

Stay poppin them pills and rollin it up

Hoping to numb the pain, aint never sobbered up enough

Its not enough

Why stay in this world when the pain is so mucht to bare

Why stay alive for someone you love, when they are hurting with you

Just as much

That cant be reason enough

Greater Reason

A fruit stays ripe only for a moment in time, 

Before it rots and turns to a darkened slime.

The rode stays bright and crisp for a while,

But soon fades away and falls to the ground, 

Petal by petal, til nothing stands.

We as humans are no more than fruit

Provide seeds, the rotting away.

Keeping the species replenished and active.

But inside we are dormant.

Dead and nothing but a shell.

Flesh with a soul, an empty soul only one thing can fill..

We can’t buy this thing. 

Only believe it to be true,

And one day when our bodies rot and fade away,

As we will we see the light at the end

We know then,

It’s true…

This repetitive life we live as a rose,

Is possible because of a Greater reason.

Own Little World

Sitting across this table,

From you.

The light shines in as we eat our breakfast.

With birds chirping in the distance and the morning dew,

I can’t help but stop eating and stare at you.

In your own little world, eating your cereal, not paying any mind to me or mine…

But

What I find to be fascinating about you, is your spirit to find.

Every morning, pray

Speaking to God in a way, I can’t explain.

A conversation so real, something that one would feel,

And I feel you continue this conversation throughout your day,

You meditate so well,

So lost in your own little world…

Stand

The wind:
A friend but also an enemy;
A natural disaster in the making;
In the end brings out the best of things.
Refreshing to see,
And marvelous to feel.
Heat from the rays, a temporary heal.

The beautiful sight
Of branches swaying
In the sky,
As if saying:
“Blow wind! Blow! Shape me, break me!
“Make me something better! Mold me! Make me!”
Pain at first, and ugly ness and shame,
But in the end pride from scars and victory remain.

Overcoming the wind
That blew from all sides,
Fought against me to make me fall,
But my roots are stronger, stronger than all!
All the temptations to give up
And lack of the desire to stay up.

My roots never gave up on me,
Despite the pain and sorrow from my suffering.
The wind may blow my branches
And the wind may blow my stem,
But the roots is have that grip the earth
Are what make me continue to stand.