Antagonist

Why do I worry what others think of me
Because it doesn’t matter at all all what they think
What I believe
And what I stand for
What I am convicted about
And what I’m not convicted about
What I dress like
What I listen to
What I say
And where I go to
Its my choice
Others have no say in what I do
I’m not being immoral
I’m not swearing left and right
I’m not watching porn videos and partying all night
So why do I care what they think of me??
Those people with no problems
DO Have problems
We all have our issues
So why point fingers?
Why preach at one another?
Point one finger at me and five point back to you
Worry about yourself and not what others do
I hold myself to high enough standards
Going any higher and my head would explode from all the pressure
I am happy where I am
And i am satisfied where i stand
Not being all high and mighty doesn’t make you a better person
It makes you someone that no one can stand
They can’t be around a hypocritical person
Saying one thing
And doing another
Or maybe even sticking to it and being the most boring person ever
I won’t be like that
I’m not going to be this picture perfect christian
I refuse to limit myself to what you say
is the correct way
The right way
And the only way
That’s not okay
And there is no way
That I will ever again try to be like that
I have learned a lot about myself
And I have learned why my happiness has been gone
My joy has been stalled
Like a lemon junker clunker on the side of the road
My true happiness for a couple months now has been froze
But I found out tonight what was the cause
Its when I decided to give up what you said I needed to get rid of
You made me throw a part of me away
But I have brought it back
And there’s nothing off track now
I am back to my normal self
And there’s not stopping me now
Take me as I am
Or not at all
Take me for what I am
Or move right along
I won’t waste my time on some fun sucker perfectionist
So go find someone else
And be their antagonist.

Random Thanks

in my church there is a lady
Who every time I ask how she is doing…
She always responds “thankful”
Under breath I said to my best friend
“I wish I was always thankful”
But it wasn’t quiet enough,
Because the lady heard me
She said
“you are, you just don’t realize it”
So I started thinking of everything I am thankful for…
I couldn’t stop.
Literally, all day
Things to be thankful for
flowed out of my mouth.
Like a unstoppable train.
Like a never ending rain…
My schooling,
My parents,
My three siblings,
My talents,
My beautiful guitar
My home,
Its small
but I’ve never had to move out of it once.
I’m thankful for that,
Being in a stable home.
Moving around,
Was never a problem.
I’m thankful for my church
My best friend Daleah
And also my Nana and papaw,
My preacher and his wife
They are godly role models
I am thankful for my apparel,
My bed, and cosmetics
I don’t know what I would do without my mascara and foundation,
I am thankful for a shower, and water,
Food supply,
And books…
My many thriller books
And my favorite author Ted DekKer.
And I can’t forget my favorite singer!
Jimmy Needham, his music speak to me,
And I am thankful for when I can catch a movie!
I love cookies,
And ice cream,
Chinese food and Italian obviously,
I love cars and the transportation
And even tho I don’t own one… I am thankful for ford mustangs!
Walking would be dreaded with this humid heat.
But walking in style, that’s a nice feat!
I’m thankful for shoes
I’m thankful for music
And babies that I ever so often babysit.
There’s much to list
But I don’t have the time
Oh there’s one!!
I am thankful for my favorite color blue!
Now,
Back to what I got to do…

X Is My Name

Dreamer.
My name is dreamer because I dream;
Always trying to change things;
Having my mind set high on everything;
Thinking it will work,
But instead I’m forced to settle.

Worker.
Worker is my name
I hate playing the sitting game.
Always on the move
Getting things accomplished
However, unfortunately
People often take advantage.

Selfless.
My name is selfless.
I give until I have nothing.
A natural born giver.
Not the usual taker.
Others say that they
Would love to have this attribute,
But care too much about what they’d lose.

Original.
Original I am called.
People tend to avoid me,
Because in their mind I’m strange.
But really I am not,
I just do my own thing.
I don’t follow the trends.
I make my own choices.
What others say won’t have an effect on my way.

Honest.
I am honest and I am true.
To lie, is not what I do.
For a liar I cannot stand.
From hell their lying words came.
And to hell they will return.
I won’t give an ear to the nonsense
That pours out of them.
They will by me be spurned.

Loving.
I am a lover.
Not upfront tho
This characteristic is hidden like a treasure.
To see my loving side
Be loving to me
And there for me.
Be a true friend.
There til the end.

Understanding.
I am a very understanding person.
I feel what others feel.
Which is a good thing and a bad thing.
When someone hurts inside,
I feel their pain and with them I cry.
My compassion for those around me
Is so great sometimes I don’t count it a blessing.
I get stressed for others mental heartache
When it doesn’t involve me,
but I feel compelled to tell them
I understand
And I’m there for them.
That they won’t go through it alone,
Because I am a true friend.

Creative.
I am super creative
Give me a string and a rock and I’ll make a broomstick…
Ok that may be a stretch,
But believe me when I say
I can make stuff from what people call trash.

Sensitive.
I am a sensitive individual.
Things can break me down easily.
People can without trying truly hurt my feelings.
But maybe this is just one of my many short trees…