How can it be that i am still not on top
On top of life
On top of myself
How can it be that i am dead last
Everyone has passed
Lap after lap
How can it be i am never understood
Maybe because no one could possibly relate to my pain
My heartache is only my own,
Sometimes i wonder if ever God can understand…
So how can it be that i am so alone?
Despite the loneliness i know i have someone here.
I have my God, and my husband.
But why do i still feel this way?
How can it be that i feel like the only person in the world
Even tho there are millions of people here
Even tho i pass hundreds daily….
How can it be?