Long and hard
That you are in a grey space, nothing but time can fill
And even time, can not even fill this space.
It is never ending.
This space is your mind.
Now take this space and fill it.
With actions every day.
But not just any daily occurrence, but only the hurt and pain you been through.
Fill this space, your mind, this time with only the most hurtful moments in your life.
Anytime you were bullied, verbally or physically,
Anytime you were backstabbed.
Fired from a job.
Homeless… anything in your life that you wish never happened,
You wish you could redo it over.
Anything that breaks your heart to the point of the most deepest sorrow…
Now imagine, a small square about the size of a penny in this space.
This very large never ending space of pure hell…
That penny size square is all the happiness you can think of in your life.
Now, you know that penny is much bigger, but in your mind, in this space you are trapped in it appears so small..
Welcome to my mind.
The place that i cannot think of anything happy,
The space that i cannot think of anything to be thankful for because i cannot see past the negativity in my life.
I cannot see past the bad spots,
The change of everything in life.
I dont even recognize myself anymore,
I dont know what to do with myself.
With no desire to live but no motivation to end life, i live in this space, and waste time.
Just waiting for the day that it all ends….