Why

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Why

Why do I have doubts?

Why do I cry sometimes?

For no reason whatsoever

Why do I want attention so much?

But hide in a corner when I receive it

Why when things are ok do I want things to go south again?

Why do I want a happy story to turn sad?

Why do I gravitate towards negativity?

Why do sad songs and minor chords satisfy my hunger and thirst?

Why is it that everything I set my eyes to an impossibility?

Why do I set my eyes so high when I know I may end in disappointment?

Why

Why do I do these things?

Why do I ask for an opinion and then do the opposite

Why do I say I’m ok when I’m not?

Why do I laugh when I don’t find something comical?

Why do I tell the truth when I know it will hurt someone?

Why do I hold my feelings so deep inside but grasp for everyone else’s

Why do want others to open up but I won’t open up to them

Why do I lock my heart in a box and throw away the key

Why am I afraid to expose my heart to my close ones?

Why

Why is music and poetry the only thing that speaks to me?

Why is music and poetry the only things that I care about?

Why is it that when I put myself last others allow it

Why is it that when I try so hard to fix people they don’t let me?

Why do I try when I know it is cut that can’t be mended

Why do I not give up when someone has been hurt so many times?

Why do I love the broken so much?

Why do I want to be with the ones who are depressed and hurt?

Why do I surround myself with blankets of sadness and pain?

Why do I allow myself to fall into an emotional state that I can’t be pulled out of without writing

Why do I do these things to myself?

Why do I allow myself to fall in love with ones who will never love me the same?

Why do to put forth that much effort

Why?

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